Really? I mean...REALLY?!???????????!!!!!!!!!????????????!!!!!!!!!

Well, I didn't get to blog last night. I was in too much pain to even sit at my computer. You may ask why I was/am in pain...Well, I somehow strained my back. So, my lower right side of my back and down my right leg is throbbing like crazy!! Today, it started to tingle from the tips of my fingers (on my right hand of course) down to the toes of my right foot. The medicine my doctor gave me yesterday is not helping. I was told that if I don't get better within a week or so, I will probably have to go to physical therapy...AGAIN! I haven't gotten more than 5 minutes of sleep in the last 2 nights, and I'm exhausted, but can't sleep for the pain. So, I can't stand to sit, stand up, lay down...or basically any other movement at the moment...Some way to ring in the new year, huh!!!

So, all of you out there in cyberspace, I will keep this blog very short tonight. For those of you going out, be safe, don't drink and drive. And, I hope all of you have a VERY Happy New Year! May 2010 be the best year ever!

With all my love (and pain today!),
Hope Renae

So tired...

So, today was...well, it just was!! I think I come home everyday from DCS more tired than I was when I worked as a preschool teacher. At the time, I didn't think there could be a more stressful/tiresome job as having to deal with 13 three year olds everyday by myself...well, I was wrong!!! I want to love my job, or at least like it, but most days I just can't. Don't get me wrong, I love the people that I work closely with everyday...I have some awesome co-workers!...but, the job itself just sucks! But, I'm not going to focus too much on that today...I need a mental break from work!!

Instead, I think I will tell all of you about what happened to me yesterday that I had left out of my blog posting last night. I got bit by a baby mole!! Now, I know you all have to be a mixture of confused as hell and laughing your butts off! I, for one, find it hilarious! See, what happened was this: I pulled into my sister's driveway and proceeded to go up her front porch steps. I noticed that her (inside) cat was outside and was chasing a baby mole. Now, normally, I would just have kept walking inside, but the mole looked pitiful, so I decided to help it. Before you say, awwwww, you're so nice...let me assure you, I'm not. If it had been a mouse or rat, I probably would've put ketchup on it to make it taste better for the cat! I just didn't feel like letting the poor baby mole get killed...it just didn't feel right/humane! So, my 7 year old nephew came outside to help me. He kept the cat off the baby mole while I took the things I was carrying inside. I came back outside to find the mole hiding (shaking!) in some weeds in front of the porch. The cat was still trying to get to it...So, idiot me puts the cat inside and picks up the baby mole!!! Well, it was already scared and then this crazy human picked it up...It just wasn't having it...so, it tried to get out of my grip and I wouldn't let it...So, the poor little guy did the only thing it knew to do...it bit my thumb!! Yes, I threw it down after that...but, this is me, I wasn't done. My nephew helped me get a cup and we cornered the little guy and put him in the cup, and then we found one of the MANY mole holes in my sister's yard and released it into it. Therefore, yes, I did get bit by the little bugger, but we did save it...at least for that day.

In other random thoughts...I've noticed that as I get older, I can't eat the same types of food that I once loved. For instance, Taco Bell (or Taco Hell as my friends and I often call it)...what a guilty pleasure that place USED to be for me. Now, when I eat it, it just makes me ill. Why? I don't know! I'm only 23!!! I'm not supposed to be getting nauseous from this stuff, or having heartburn...or anything!! I'm supposed to eat it, gain the weight from all the calories that crap packs on, and move on with my life! Instead, I've found myself passing by Taco Bell and thinking about the "good ole days"! SERIOUSLY!!!?????!!!!!!! What crap! It just makes me mad!!!

Ok, bloggers...All this talk of Taco Bell has made me hungry...I'm off to figure out what I want for dinner...And, you guessed it, it won't be Taco Hell!

Until tomorrow,

Hope Renae

The Beginning...

So, tonight, I start my new life. One where I don't keep all my thoughts, feelings, frustrations, longings, passions, fears, etc. bottled up until they explode and people think I'm some crazy maniac on crack! Tonight, is the new beginning. One where I'll be able to say any random thing I please and not care what anyone thinks or says about it. And, lets face it...I never really much cared what people thought or said before, but, at least now, they have actually written proof that I called them out for being stupid or lazy, or was mean to them just because I can be. Everyone who knows me, knows that I'm not an angel, nor do I pretend to be, nor would I ever want to be one. I'm just me: A girl from Tennessee who has WAY too many dreams for the future, and who often oversteps her bounds with people. So, to anyone who may stumble upon this blog, sit down, strap in, and hold on for what is sure to be a bumpy 2010. Here, I promise to not hold back, and to say what everyone else is thinking, just too polite to say. Also, I will just post random, meaningless junk here, just because I can. If you don't like it, I really don't care. This blog is for me, not for anyone else out there.

So, to start us off...Randomness of the night: I just now, finally, watched the fall finale of Glee. Now, I know what you all are thinking...You watch that?!....YES!!! Of course, I watch that show! It is absolutely my guilty pleasure!!! Me, being the music fanatic, love the casts amazing abilities! I tip my invisible hat to them! What a talented group of people! To those of you who won't watch the show; give it a shot, you might like it!

Other thoughts of the day: I was at my sister's apartment earlier tonight holding my 5 day old niece, Haley (see image above), and I thought of what a blessing she is to my family. All who know me are probably thinking, "Hope, I know that all children are a blessing, but doesn't your family have a lot of children in it?". Well, yes, we do, but Haley is special. Haley is the namesake of my Aunt Haley who passed away May 10, 2008. My Aunt Haley was a force to be reckoned with! She helped hold my family together after my dad died, and quite frankly, I don't know where I would be if she wasn't there for me. When we lost her, every one of us lost a piece of ourselves. With Baby Haley, we have a renewed since of joy in our lives. Even at 5 days old, I can tell she has Aunt Haley's feisty spirit. I pray that she has Aunt Haley's will to live, and she will be a joy to others, like Aunt Haley was to us.

Well, I would like to post more randomness tonight, but it is almost 2:00 a.m., and I have to be up in less than 4 hours for work. So, even though I don't want to, I must end this and get some much needed sleep. Goodnight all. I hope everyone has sweet dreams and a very random day tomorrow!

With all my love,

Hope Renae